Move complete

Omgosh!

Will post more later.

Confession

I'm really really nervous about moving. I don't think I've been this nervous about moving since I was a kid. I'm afraid it's going to cost too much and I'll be plagued by crushing debt for the rest of my life, or it will turn out to be a mistake, or I'll start working and find out that somehow I completely misgauged myself and have to start all over again, or I won't make any friends, or I won't do well, or just generally that it will be horrible and I will be horrible.

*big sigh* Can someone share their confidence with me, because I think I misplaced mine.

Secret of me # 12

My attention span is very short. Imagine that paying attention was like using a machete to hack your way through a jungle of super-fast growing vines. If you're really into it you can make progress. For me every noise, every bit of music or blip from the TV, every flash of color or movement, every itch; it's like dropping the machete.

This is why I DO NOT LIKE "background noise." No music, not TV, no radio. Because, to me "background noise" is "we're going to away your machete and then asking why you didn't make it through the jungle."

Things People Said to Me # 1

When I was in high school I knew a girl. I knew many people but I was in the habit of forgetting them after they left. She moved and I've forgotten her name and her face but I haven't forgotten her or what she said to me.
She was moving and I was sad, I'd liked her and felt like she was a bit of a bit sister to me, which was a rare feeling. I asked her if she would remember me.
She looked at me and said,
"Lori, you're the kind of person that once someone meets you, they can never forget you."

Not Really a Big Deal But...

I've seen this a lot on fan comments and such, that people want Benedict Cumberbatch as the next Doctor Who. I like Cumberbatch, I think he has a fascinating face and he's an excellent actor. That being said, if he ends up as the next Doctor, well, I'm not going to be watching Doctor Who anymore. *shrug*

Favorite Musicians

My favorite musicians are:

Derek Webb

and

JJ. Heller

I don't really know who else I can listen to on repeat for months. I'm not saying I like all their songs, but most of them.

 I also enjoy:

Ingrid Michaelson

Sara Bareilles

Ludovico Einaudi

Confusion

I don't tend to consider myself a slow person, but there are...a great many things in the world that confuse me.

For example, asking a question, but meaning a different question. Such as "Have you seen [this movie?]" when you mean "Do you want to see this movie with me?" How is anyone to know there was a second question there?

Also, when I say "I disagree" or "You're wrong" and people hear all manner of insults. There's nothing wrong with being wrong, or with disagreeing. I'm wrong half the time and I think I'm probably pretty average about the amount of things I'm correct on. And, many many people disagree with me, learning why they disagree informs me, and sometimes it changes my mind, and generally they are free to have their different opinions. I don't understand what the big deal is.

See, that's something else I don't understand.

I don't understand why people think "fair" where two people suffer mistreatment equally is some how just as "fair" and desirable as two people not suffering.

I don't understand why body hair is bad. The argument for hairlessness=hygiene is, as far as I can tell, a sham argument.

I don't understand why peeing is gross, or why we have to do it in isolation, or why we need to pee into clean water.

Or why sweat is bad, or why human smell is bad.

I don't understand why we need to change our clothes every season.

I don't understand why I'm not supposed to wear white after labor day.

I don't understand why knife has to face the plate and or the spoon should be on the other side.

I don't understand why bigger is better, or richer is better.

I don't understand why we need to drive.

I don't understand how an office job is the ideal work.

I don't understand why flawless fruits and veggies are more desirable than ones strait from a garden.

I don't understand why we need bottled water.

I don't understand how a pedicure is a "treat" (now that's unhygienic).

I don't understand why I have to say "I'm fine" when I'm not.

I don't understand why some people kiss when they meet but other people just hug and other people just say hello. Can't we have a standard?

I don't understand how bitter can be bad when many bitter foods are good for you.

I don't understand how we can gauge someone's value or character by their waistline.

I don't understand why we believe politicians every few years when they've always lied in the past.

I really don't understand why people worship or even care about the lives of actors/athletes/musicians.

I don't understand why difficult is bad and easy is good.

I don't understand how ignoring a problem is supposed to make it go away.

I don't understand being competitive about everything.

I don't understand why people yell at service workers.

I don't understand why people think they "deserve" special treatment.

I don't understand why people think that "common sense" shouldn't have to be taught when "common sense" differs depending on the country.

I don't understand why people always want to be in a group, and make other people part of a group. Why do we need groups?

I don't understand...

No, there are a lot of things I don't understand.